What were the circumstances that inspired you to write that story (J’ai Tué ma mère)? How did your parents, particularly your mother, receive the film?
I think it was easier for my mom to think it was just about somebody else. She said the only thing that woman and her had in common was that they were both stuck in traffic on a bridge every morning. Years later, we talked about it and she said, “When I saw the film, the first thing I said to myself was, I didn’t know he hated me that much.” But making that film, for me, was such an effort of modesty in terms of accepting what a brash, hysterical, egotistical kid I could have been and embracing the fact that I needed to be honest so the movie wouldn’t be one-dimensional. Making that movie was all about making that woman a hero and the moments mocking her are so largely outnumbered by the moments glorifying her, while demonizing him–me. So for me, it was all about saying, “Didn’t you know I loved you that much?”
—Noir désir (“J’ai tué ma mère”, Xavier Dolan & François Arnaud)
Xavier Dolan by Jocelyn Michel | CONSULAT, 2014
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